What Keeps Me Up At Night

by Ampersand

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released January 3, 2014

All songs recorded, mixed and mastered by Brian Mcternan and Will Beasley at Salad Days Studio in Baltimore MD.

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Ampersand Evesham Township, New Jersey

Ampersand is a alternative/punk from Marlton, New Jersey.
Ryan- Guitar/Vocals
Tom-Guitar
Lucas-Drums
Connor-Bass

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Track Name: False Hope
Keep pointing fingers at everybody else
I can't believe the shit that comes out of your mouth
Desperately clinging and reading way too deep
Into that "divine" book that contradicts itself

We all want answers to the questions that keep us up at night
But I won't waste my time living out my life getting ready to die
What they say can't be true
Don't let them smother you

For years and years I let you cram it down my throat
Never answering the simple how or whys
Seeking forgiveness in imaginary ghosts
You never question, you throw logic aside

We all want answers to the questions that keep us up at night
But I won't waste my time living out my life getting ready to die
What they say can't be true
Don't let them smother you

I won't be fed lies
For false hope when I die
Track Name: Get A Life
I'm dead, in over my head, tired and frustrated
I've been sitting here for hours on end
Waiting for a spark to ignite my pen
And give me the right words to drive into your head

Carefully constructed to bring you down
You think you've got it all figured out
Well I'd hate to be where you are now

Take a look around and enjoy the long ride down
I'd like to hear you criticize me now
So open up your mouth and let the bullshit out
You finally gave me something to laugh about

You wish that you could start over again
Well that's too bad, you had your chance
Now you're just pathetic

I'd like to say I'm sorry for this misery you're feeling
But I'd be lying
And I'll smile and I'll wave, tell you you'll be ok
As the world around you chews you up and spirals down the drain
Track Name: Infinite
I've got tunnel vision and Pittsburgh's shining bright tonight
City wind whips through my hair
Summer's over and it's time for a brand new year
As autumn greets me with a pair of beautiful eyes

I spent the last few months just thinking about Michael
And it's time to turn things around
And then she came along and hit me like a brick wall
And I've never felt the way that I do now

I am here and I am looking at her
So turn up the music and drive faster
We can't choose where we come from
But we can choose where we go

Dear my anonymous listener
This is my last letter
And I want you to know you were there
When I needed you most
Track Name: Logan
My heart is aching and I can't sleep at night
What I would give to hear your voice one more time
So young and innocent, but stolen away
Sick to my stomach as these days fade

I fall down onto my knees and beat the earth until my knuckles bleed
And i can't breath
And it feels like I've been hit by a train and this pain is destroying me
An angel got a brand new pair of wings

I've never felt so god damn helpless and low
I've bottled it all up and now I'm gonna explode
I can barely walk into your house and resist the urge to cry
But for your moms sake, I bite down on my lip and I try

I can't believe this, give me a reason why
And it makes me sick knowing I never got to say goodbye
And i don't know what to do with all this anger that I'm feeling
On the inside

So i scream "fuck you" to god, and wipe tears from my eyes
Track Name: Numb
Can you tell me how you do it?
Day in and day out
There's a numbness in your face
Because your candle's burning out
And your reflection in the mirror
Looks back with sunken eyes
And your heart has grown so heavy
From breaking all the time

And I just can't recall
The old you, the real you
A list of broken promises for you

Your hands shake
As your heart breaks
Your eyes burn
Is it over?
Track Name: Photographs And Souvenirs
Please know that I still love you
And I know you're not to blame
And these things tend to happen
Living in this day and age
And I know now we're not lucky
And it kills me to admit
That we're not the picture perfect family we were
When I was still a kid

I thought we'd always be together
I thought not me, not us, not ever
But I guess that I was wrong

This van is my only escape
From accepting that my life has changed
And my whole world is falling down around me
How long will it be
Until I've got nothing left but memories?

And I've been staying awake for most of the night
I just can't seem to shut my eyes
And I've been screaming on the inside
As I sit back and watch this thing die

This van is my only escape
From accepting that my life has changed
And my whole world is falling down around me
How long will it be
Until I've got nothing left but memories?
Track Name: What Keeps Me Up At Night
I'm drifting nowhere
I'm just a grain of sand on a beach
There's a billion other people like me
Whose dreams just feel so far out of reach
They're out of reach

I'm floating nowhere
I'm a fucking grain of salt in the sea
Do you know how many people are like me?
Realizing our existence is meek
Yeah, our existence is meek

And it haunts me at night when I stare at the sky
It's nights spent gazing at stars when I feel how small we really are
We live out meaningless lives before we fade one at a time

So tell me
What difference is my life gonna make?
Is there purpose in each breath that I take?
Is there reason for each morning I wake?
For each morning I wake