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Descend

by Ampersand

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1.
Demons 03:15
I'm not alright, I can't escape this lie I tell to myself every time I shut my eyes Been hanging out inside the darker corners of my mind It makes it easier to hide And I know it's not ok When waking up's the hardest part about my day And there are nights I lay in bed Staring at that fan above my head And wondering if it can hold my weight I can't shake this feeling There's so much built up inside of me And I've got these demons That I can no longer keep at bay They're taking hold of me So what can I do? How do I fix myself? I'm sinking deeper inside my own personal hell And these four white walls Have become the shackles of a cell And I'm isolated, which is perfect because I love to hate myself And I know it's not ok When it's a struggle just to make it through the day And there are nights I sit at home Think of lines from all my favorite songs And which ones would fit best inside my note I can't shake this feeling There's so much built up inside of me And I've got these demons That I can no longer keep at bay They're taking hold of me And I don't know what's wrong And I can't seem to find A reason for all the things running through my mind So tell me now, what do I do? Just tell me now, how do I find the strength to make it through?
2.
Nightmare 03:42
I keep waking up in this nightmare Never knowing the who, what, the why, or the where Keep telling myself I don't care Until it finally sinks in, that I just keep sinking Deep down in this pit of despair Where theres no lights or windows And I only ever come up for air Close the curtain, roll credits, I'm done I'd rather die in the shadows than be something I'm not in the sun And I won't keep going this way And I can't keep living this way I'm giving up I can't go on, Turned into something I don't want I'm tired of being miserable I'm giving up it's over now, I'm finally throwing in the towel I'm giving up, I'm giving up Stop telling me that it's ok Stop telling me that it's gonna get better , it won't Stop saying you wanna help me If you wanted to help me you'd just fucking leave me alone My tolerance and my patience are gone I'm done walking on eggshells, I'll do what I want So go ahead, tell me, do you like what you see? I'm at the end of my rope and I feel like I've lost everything And I won't keep going this way And I can't keep living this way I'm giving up I can't go on, Turned into something I don't want I'm tired of being miserable I'm giving up it's over now, I'm finally throwing in the towel I'm giving up, I'm giving up So wake me up Because I must be stuck in a dream Wake me up, Wake me
3.
Stay 03:58
A silent stare, those icy eyes The rain on the window pane reminding me to stay inside Your muscles twitch along your side From tracing patterns of invisible lines Stay here, Don't go, I don't wanna be alone Breathe in, Stay close, I don't wanna be alone I close my eyes, try not to think Get lost inside my head wrapped up between the sheets The alarm rings, I feel you stir You don't want to, but you have to leave me here Stay here, Don't go, I don't wanna be alone Breathe in, Stay close, I don't wanna be alone Stay here, don't leave me here alone
4.
Home 03:34
I'm breaking down, got turned around Somewhere along the way I think I lost myself I'm tired of this place, tired of my doubts Tired of not feeling welcome in my own hell I never thought it would come to this Everything was fine, I wasn't ready for the plot twist The past year took its toll on me And I just can't get used to it I just want to go home To the house on Knowlton that I called my own I just want to go back To the way things were before when my life felt in tact I'm tired of waking up, tired of feeling meaningless And feeling stuck Eat, sleep, work, do it all again A rerun I'm tired of repeating When am I gonna catch a break From the same old bullshit day after day A nightmare that I'm stuck inside Someone throw me a line The past year took its toll on me And I just can't get used to it I just wanted to go home To the house on Knowlton that I called my own I just want to go back To the way things were before when my life felt in tact The pictures on my wall I've taken down Because they're just a reminder to myself Of everything I've lost and all thats changed And I can't take the pain
5.
Two-Faced 02:28
It makes me sick just to think of the way you waited until I was away Then you came and took what you wanted, didn't matter much to you I can't believe what you put me through You drove your knife through my back Betraying all that we had You dragged me screaming through hell How do you live with yourself? So are you happy? Are you proud of the damage that you've done? I guess you have so many friends you don't mind losing one They say we all pay the price for the things we do And she's no better than you You drove your knife through my back Betraying all that we had You dragged me screaming through hell How do you live with yourself? So are you satisfied? What keeps you up at night?
6.
Siren 04:09
You took it all in your hands and you crushed it On a stage for all to see Left me broken in shattered pieces But you stayed to watch me bleed Here's to hoping that there's no other fools like me For you to meet Take a second, did you ever care for me? Or was it all a game? Something about the way you stared at me The way you said my name Here's to hoping that theres nobody else like you For me to meet You took what you wanted from me, like a leech Parasitic, sucking all of the warmth out of me Like a sailor stranded between the cliffs and the reef As the siren lured me right where she wanted me Dragged me down to the depths of the sea As the air left my lungs, and she watched as I struggled to breathe Took one last look at the moon as it shone through the mist And then I faded, one more casualty to add to her list

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released December 1, 2015

All songs recorded/mixed/mastered by Will Beasley @ Valencia Studios

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Ampersand Evesham Township, New Jersey

Ampersand is a alternative/punk from Marlton, New Jersey.
Ryan- Guitar/Vocals
Tom-Guitar
Lucas-Drums
Connor-Bass

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