Descend

by Ampersand

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03:15
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03:42
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03:58
4.
03:34
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02:28
6.
04:09

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released December 1, 2015

All songs recorded/mixed/mastered by Will Beasley @ Valencia Studios

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Ampersand Evesham Township, New Jersey

Ampersand is a alternative/punk from Marlton, New Jersey.
Ryan- Guitar/Vocals
Tom-Guitar
Lucas-Drums
Connor-Bass

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Track Name: Demons
I'm not alright, I can't escape this lie
I tell to myself every time I shut my eyes
Been hanging out inside the darker corners of my mind
It makes it easier to hide

And I know it's not ok
When waking up's the hardest part about my day
And there are nights I lay in bed
Staring at that fan above my head
And wondering if it can hold my weight

I can't shake this feeling
There's so much built up inside of me
And I've got these demons
That I can no longer keep at bay
They're taking hold of me

So what can I do? How do I fix myself?
I'm sinking deeper inside my own personal hell
And these four white walls
Have become the shackles of a cell
And I'm isolated, which is perfect because I love to hate myself

And I know it's not ok
When it's a struggle just to make it through the day
And there are nights I sit at home
Think of lines from all my favorite songs
And which ones would fit best inside my note

I can't shake this feeling
There's so much built up inside of me
And I've got these demons
That I can no longer keep at bay
They're taking hold of me

And I don't know what's wrong
And I can't seem to find
A reason for all the things running through my mind

So tell me now, what do I do?
Just tell me now, how do I find the strength to make it through?
Track Name: Nightmares
I keep waking up in this nightmare
Never knowing the who, what, the why, or the where
Keep telling myself I don't care
Until it finally sinks in, that I just keep sinking

Deep down in this pit of despair
Where theres no lights or windows
And I only ever come up for air
Close the curtain, roll credits, I'm done
I'd rather die in the shadows than be something I'm not in the sun

And I won't keep going this way
And I can't keep living this way

I'm giving up I can't go on, Turned into something I don't want
I'm tired of being miserable
I'm giving up it's over now, I'm finally throwing in the towel
I'm giving up, I'm giving up

Stop telling me that it's ok
Stop telling me that it's gonna get better , it won't
Stop saying you wanna help me
If you wanted to help me you'd just fucking leave me alone

My tolerance and my patience are gone
I'm done walking on eggshells, I'll do what I want
So go ahead, tell me, do you like what you see?
I'm at the end of my rope and I feel like I've lost everything

And I won't keep going this way
And I can't keep living this way

I'm giving up I can't go on, Turned into something I don't want
I'm tired of being miserable
I'm giving up it's over now, I'm finally throwing in the towel
I'm giving up, I'm giving up

So wake me up
Because I must be stuck in a dream
Wake me up, Wake me
Track Name: Stay
A silent stare, those icy eyes
The rain on the window pane reminding me to stay inside
Your muscles twitch along your side
From tracing patterns of invisible lines

Stay here, Don't go, I don't wanna be alone
Breathe in, Stay close, I don't wanna be alone

I close my eyes, try not to think
Get lost inside my head wrapped up between the sheets
The alarm rings, I feel you stir
You don't want to, but you have to leave me here

Stay here, Don't go, I don't wanna be alone
Breathe in, Stay close, I don't wanna be alone

Stay here, don't leave me here alone
Track Name: Home
I'm breaking down, got turned around
Somewhere along the way I think I lost myself
I'm tired of this place, tired of my doubts
Tired of not feeling welcome in my own hell
I never thought it would come to this
Everything was fine, I wasn't ready for the plot twist

The past year took its toll on me
And I just can't get used to it

I just want to go home
To the house on Knowlton that I called my own
I just want to go back
To the way things were before when my life felt in tact

I'm tired of waking up, tired of feeling meaningless
And feeling stuck
Eat, sleep, work, do it all again
A rerun I'm tired of repeating
When am I gonna catch a break
From the same old bullshit day after day
A nightmare that I'm stuck inside
Someone throw me a line

The past year took its toll on me
And I just can't get used to it

I just wanted to go home
To the house on Knowlton that I called my own
I just want to go back
To the way things were before when my life felt in tact

The pictures on my wall I've taken down
Because they're just a reminder to myself
Of everything I've lost and all thats changed
And I can't take the pain
Track Name: Two-Faced
It makes me sick just to think of the way you waited until I was away
Then you came and took what you wanted, didn't matter much to you
I can't believe what you put me through

You drove your knife through my back
Betraying all that we had
You dragged me screaming through hell
How do you live with yourself?

So are you happy? Are you proud of the damage that you've done?
I guess you have so many friends you don't mind losing one
They say we all pay the price for the things we do
And she's no better than you

You drove your knife through my back
Betraying all that we had
You dragged me screaming through hell
How do you live with yourself?

So are you satisfied?
What keeps you up at night?
Track Name: Siren
You took it all in your hands and you crushed it
On a stage for all to see
Left me broken in shattered pieces
But you stayed to watch me bleed

Here's to hoping that there's no other fools like me
For you to meet

Take a second, did you ever care for me?
Or was it all a game?
Something about the way you stared at me
The way you said my name

Here's to hoping that theres nobody else like you
For me to meet

You took what you wanted from me, like a leech
Parasitic, sucking all of the warmth out of me
Like a sailor stranded between the cliffs and the reef
As the siren lured me right where she wanted me

Dragged me down to the depths of the sea
As the air left my lungs, and she watched as I struggled to breathe
Took one last look at the moon as it shone through the mist
And then I faded, one more casualty to add to her list